Do you know that song? It’s an old one and it goes like this:
I been lied on (lied on)
Talked about (talked about)
I been rebuked (rebuked)
Talked about sure as you’re born (talked about sure as you’re born)
I been up (up)
Almost to the ground (almost to the ground)
long as I got king Jesus (long as I got king Jesus)
Loooong as I got him (I don’t need nobody else) – Vickie Winans (1997).
Like never before have the lyrics to this old song become more real to me than in the past couple of months; we have had long-time friends turn their backs on us, new friends discard us like so much rubbish, I have watched my husband be lied on and taken for granted. We persevere and we continue on because we know that kingdom building is not easy! I laid awake one night in a lucid daydream, and in this dream I visualized my savior walking up a hill with a huge wooden cross on His back, and every step that He took the sins of my thoughts were tossed onto His back; I was angry or bitter or felt discouraged about things that had happened to me, and each instance caused more weight to be tossed onto the cross and weighed Him down more and more. Although I was awake and saw this I could not stop the visual, it played like a film in the front of my mind. When I thought that no more weight could be put on that cross there was more, and it was then that I realized that I was surrounded by people and all of their sins were added to that weight. I will get back to this in a bit..
Jesus, of course, knew His mission and accepted it knowing what the end would be. Are we not so privileged? God gave us the choice of salvation and once we accepted His gift we learned what the mission is, and know what the end will be. Yet we will still forget the insults, torment, ridicule, and physical abuse that Jesus suffered for our sake. When Jesus was soon to leave the Earth He spoke to His disciples these words:
If ye love me, keep my commandments. And I will pray the Father, and he shall give you another Comforter, that he may abide with you for ever; Even the Spirit of truth; whom the world cannot receive, because it seeth him not, neither knoweth him: but ye know him; for he dwelleth with you, and shall be in you. I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you. Yet a little while, and the world seeth me no more; but ye see me: because I live, ye shall live also. At that day ye shall know that I am in my Father, and ye in me, and I in you (Jn. 14:15-20).
When I think of a comforter I think about the lovely, heavy spread that I keep on my bed. When it is really cold outside I will pull it up to my chin and grip it with both hands instead of turning up the heat. My comforter makes me feel good, warm and safe; the Comforter that Jesus spoke of is the spirit of God, the Holy Ghost, who also should make us feel good, warm and safe during those times that life gets hard, people abandon us, or we are persecuted. The Holy Spirit will lead and guide us into all truth, not half truths. We have to realize that God places people and situations in our lives for a reason and act accordingly; think about it, some of Jesus’ best friends threw him to the wolves. Jesus told Peter that he would deny him three times, and Peter unknowingly lied right to His face and then turned and did just what Jesus said. Judas lol, he kissed Jesus and sold Him out for some chump change. Yet despite it all Jesus continued the mission unto the end of His physical life. We cannot quit just because our feelings are hurt, or we got insulted. We cannot “sell out” the mission and invite the World into the Word because we feel like we won’t be accepted otherwise. We have got to get to the point where we are like the song lyrics above and state that as long as we have Jesus, nothing else matters. Jesus told us in verse 20 above that He is in us, and we have to embrace that knowledge and continue in the faith.
…back to my lucid daydream. As I saw more sins piled upon the cross that Jesus already bore for us I cried out “enough”, and what I told my husband when I was released from the dream is that in our daily lives we crucify Jesus again and again when we are supposedly “new creations”. Don’t pick up where you left off before salvation, let it go. If she/he doesn’t love you anymore, let them go. If your BFF Is now your FBF, let them go. If someone borrowed from you and did not pay you back, count it as a loss because God will repay. Why wear your own cross when Jesus already conquered it for you? Yes, I have been lied on, cheated, talked about, and mistreated but what I am ever-learning is to cast my cares on God because He cares for me, and HE will take those burdens and scatter them and give me peace. I pray that this message will give some clarity to someone and enrich your spiritual walk.
Have a blessed week!